
9 years ago
I've already expressed my need for more sunshine in my life, and so I decided to create my own sun. What I haven't mentioned before is the negativity inside myself that I've been pushing to work through. Like my Mother/Daughter piece, I've been working this piece for therapy and striving to be my higher self. It's been over 2 years now that I've been living with Lupus, and I still struggle with Self-Pity and Jealously surrounding my lifestyle changes. And frankly I'm sick of it and I've been working hard to put it to an end.
Sometimes when friends or family talk to me about what they've been up to: an afternoon hike, a swim at the beach, rock climbing the gorge, or a bike ride around town...I feel like I want to scream. I'm sick to my stomache with jealousy, and I hate it. I want to be able to truly celebrate the great things that people are doing, not just pretend to. I know other people struggle with similar feelings. "How dare everyone else's life go on like normal!" I've done the research and my brain can adjust to the idea that this is part of the process. But I've been completely uncomfortable with these feelings, and I'm hoping this therapy has brought me much closer to emotional health, LOL.
Okay, so about the art. I began with inspiration from an old book from the early 1970's...obviously!! And I thought that was appropriate, since I was born under a 70's sun! My other beginning inspiration was from the image of a simple sun drawn by a kindergartener...the simple circle in the middle...with oddly shaped triangles protruding from all sides. LOVE IT! What says "sun" better than that??!!
Then of course, as everyone is probably sick of hearing...I've been obsessively inspired by artists, Mandy Greer and Andy Goldsworthy. So there are elements in this piece that are my tribute to them. The rest is just joyful fun! Playtime at it's best! An experiment in Order and Chaos!!
Pic of the finishing pieces before they went on. With so many little pieces going into the whole, my goal was to make each one it's own little work of art, trying to make each interesting if it had to stand alone. I admit that I wasn't quite successful...close though!!
Please ignore the mesh hanging behind the sun, I'm desperately running out of wall space for all my works in progress!!! I'll get better pics eventually.
Twilight's spinning really has become quite incredible!! I told her that I really felt like I needed this yarn for part of my next art piece "The Other Side", and being the angel that she is...this is what she created for me to use!! All for the very expensive price of: a ton of my homemade cookies!!
This is our first table in our new house...not counting the folding ones that I use in my studio, lol. Daniel traded one of his rifles for it, I was so touched. I love how it fits into our space!
So now that we have a "formal" eating place...I set out to make us some cool placemats!!
I started with some leftover over felt and used a large mixing bowl to trace circles. Then used our Ying-Yang incense burner to trace the pattern. Then I began needle felting on yarn. I'm going to do one fire/water set...cuz those are our elements...D is fire, I'm water. Then I'm going to do a standard black and white set!!!
These branches are actual sticks that I collected. It was great fun searching for the perfect forms that would fit against fence right and give me the demensional effect I wanted. I wrapped each one and then added leaves and flowers and little beaded catapillars. Then wired them into place.
These branches became so magical, I'm certain I'll be working with these again! I'm already planning another sculpture based on them.